I believe that after we die there is nothing. The same that was before being born. So while I won’t care about not existing when it happens, the thought of it does bother me now, as I like being and would like for that to continue.
When I close my eyes I see darkness, black. But according to various sources, blind people see nothing. I’m not capable of imagining what seeing nothing really means, but I have wondered often that it may get one a step closer to being able to understand what it is to be nothing (or, more accurately, to not be). To clarify, I’m not claiming to believe blind people have a deeper understanding of non-existence, just that they have an extra data point, an experience that I don’t that may allow new insights on how to rationalise the process.
I am interested in this notion of non-existence, and would like some recommendations on it. On first look I thought ontology would be the branch of philosophy to read on (I’m not completely convinced it isn’t), but I’ve read part of Sartre’s Being and Nothingness and what he discusses isn’t exactly what I’m looking for. I also found the writing somewhat boring.
I’ve also started to look into Yale’s course on Death and found the first few videos interesting (I’m less than a fifth in) and don’t know yet if it’s what I’m looking for, but it’s interesting enough for me to keep watching.
What’s the branch of philosophy that concerns itself with non-existence, especially after death? What good literature is there on it? The more logical the arguments, the better. Please be specific in your recommendations. I’m looking for “read this book by this person”, not “read the entire history of this religion, as sometimes they mention it”.